Miss My Sleep

Sleep is my medicine, and lately it has been rare, rarer (is that a word?) than usual.  We took away our baby's pacifier about a month ago, and I am very happy about it.  Honestly for my family the pacifier was more for me than for the kids.  It was an easy way to chill them out, especially at night.

My oldest really needed it to just stop being on the go all the time, it was perfect for napping.  Luckily at 3 years old he understood when we really lost the millions that we had, and when we told him they were gone, he said ok and it was done.  My daughter at 9 months would just cry when it would fall out of her mouth at night, so I was done getting up for it.  I think she transferred her sucking need to pulling and playing with my hair as her comfort zone.  OY, I remember waking up and my whole head hurt, I didn't realize she was pulling my hair all night.  Luckily now at 3 I tell her that it hurts, and she is being gentler.


For some reason with my baby I want everything done sooner, mostly for me.  He is 18 months and only drinks from a cup, no sippy cup, no bottle for a long time now, he likes to mimic his brother and sister.  So when we forgot our only pacifier at someone's house during the holidays, I said it was a sign.  It was grossing me out how dirty it was, and it was really hard the first few nights, but now its much better, except to ease him out of it we had him in our bed.  Now for some reason he is waking up around 1am and coming to our bed, and the past few nights just tossing and turning, fully awake for a couple of hours.  He only gets one nap, and I try to make it an early one, hopefully slowly but surely he will just start sleeping longer.

I was a big n
apper before kids, and I love my sleep, I really feel that things get healed, your body gets recharged, I really cannot do without.  When I do not sleep enough, my father would always say my face looks green.  My brain is also more ditzy than usual, luckily in Yoga it doesn't get in the way to be floaty and a little out of it.

I always look forward to Shabbat to have a complete rest from the world, and Thank God for my husband who takes the kids to synagogue, so I can get just "ME" rest - oh the pleasures in life at different times of our life.

Everyone tells me all this toddler stuff I will eventually forget,
I say I won't miss it,
I will celebrate when we are done with diapers,
Thank God for these problems,
Everything Passes,
Focusing on Staying Present,
Have a Great Weekend,
Shabbat Shalom,
Coach Yulia